My bags are all packed and my bus leaves exactly in 30 mins but my heart and mind is saying no, so im staying. I am supposed to change ... But i somehow lost myself in that process. But im awake now. And i realized that, i had that life before. I had those meaningless nights. I've been partying, going out late nights ever since i was 16 years old. I am done, for good.

I've to keep on pushing myself to grow up. To remind myself that i want to be a new person, not that someone who i used to be. Its hard ... But i know E will be there to guide me all the way. He has faith in me, so i must believe in myself and not let him down. I've to keep on pushing ...