Bridezilla Attack!

If you know me or you've been following my blog, you'd know by now that i am a planner. Thats because i find the need to be in control of everything, to make sure everything goes smoothly and perfectly, ... my way.


Crazy? Yep i know.

Obviously this thing is happening right now! Planning a big day is so stressful! And on top of that, i have to juggle my work and an old unwell aunty. Its killing me! Now i cant imagine at all being a wedding planner. Too much stress of wanting everything to be perfect (read; perfect not beautiful not lavish not huge) my way is just too much. I am always awake until Subuh going over things, planning every small detail over and over again.

I went to try on some dresses 2-3 days ago. Found two that i loved. One is in black. Its simple and has embellishments dekat area yang i wanted. But its in black and bila fikir fikir balik, its too simple. I like simple, but this was too simple.

The second one i tried, it was a peplum dress. Not the color that i wanted too. But insyaallah i'll be able to work the color into my color palette (yes i actually googled color palette to see if mine matches and looks nice and on top of that, i made few inspiration boards because just visualizing in my head is simply not enough! ). E loves everything. He really is not helping at all. Everything looks lovely to him. I love that he's being supportive and all but a lot of yes-es im hearing is slowly killing me. Thank god for my sister. She's honest and very helpful alhamdulillah.

Step #1 and #2 is almost done. That is the budgeting and planning part. Im really hoping i could see/talk to my mother soon about all of this before i really start doing anything else, thats the most important part out of all. If only she lives next door ...

Diamonds Are A Girl's Bestfriend

Diamonds + girls = BFFS FOREVER!

Thats simple math. But to choose one ring for your wedding. Just one. One that you will wear everyday till you're crooked and old. One that's within your budget. Thats just plain hard.


I am a long time fan of stacked rings.

But the ones i saw are all commercial diamonds. As much as i love stacked rings, i know i need to find myself a certified diamond ring. Its not that important. And yes nobody will know if your ring is a D color or an I color or if the cut is flawless and what not. Its for self satisfaction.

I went to De Gem with bestie 2 weeks ago and the SA told me that since its a De Gem so it doesn't matter if you choose an I color. Dalam hati furious gila. Like what the hell? An I color means its an I color. Hey you might be fooling people around you but seriously if it was me mesti dalam hati tak tenang sebab cincin tu bukan dari color/cut/clarity yang baik. I know im psycho like that. Bridezilla mode, sorry!

I used to think that a ring with a big stone tu cantik sangat. But after i self-taught myself the 4Cs i now know that bigger is not always better. A smaller stone might worth more than a bigger stone if its from excellent carat/cut/clarity. So girls, please buat research before buying your ring okay? This is important. Unless you're the type yang tak kisah sangat. But then again, to each its own i guess. Certified diamonds or commercial diamonds, it depends on you. You're the one yang nak pakai sampai bila bila kan so its up to you.

But still, do educate yourself the 4Cs before buying. When i was in Diamond & Platinum with bestie. We saw the Forevermark range there. The rings was nice but its a bit too trendy for my liking. Im looking for something simple and classic. Because i keep reminding myself that i'll be stuck with that ring for the rest of myself so i must find myself something decent and something that won't go out of style. And most importantly something that suits all your outfits/watches/accessories. I tried on a small diamond. Bestie insisted on a huge rock. The one i tried worth more than hers simply because the one she tried was a lousy grade diamond. I told her that but she refused to listen (no dia tak beli, only tried for fun). I tried educating her there and then but dia takmau dengar, sigh. But i won't stop! I will try again next time and i will force her to drag me or i will shamelessly self-volunteer whenever she decides to buy her ring.

I've decided what i want but it needs to be custom-made. Its because i have small fingers. Soon insyaallah. I simply cannot wait! 

Letting The Cat Out

So i might have said yes ... and yes we are planning and yes we're hoping for everything to go well insyaallah.

Life In A (NOT SO!) Nutshell

Im sorry for the lack of updates. I have been *cough* busy *cough*

Partly true, another part is because i have nothing interesting to write. My life is so boring now, sigh. I miss my girlfriends. Everyone is in KL and im stuck here in this tiny island because of my work. Boyfriend is extra nice lately teman-ing me almost everyday to go here and there. Is it crazy that i am still so much very in love with him? Next year we'll be 9 years. I feel so old right now. I can already imagine giving a speech at my wedding telling this to my guests ... Now, dont get any ideas. If we're getting married soon, you will get the memo insyaallah. Do pray for us!

Buuuuuuuut, i already gave hints to my mom when i was in KL during Ramadhan. Umm well no, my sister actually did it for me before i had the courage to ask/tell her myself. I even went to Tiffany & Co and Cartier with my sister to scout for rings. Dont ask how many times i went scouting alone here in Penang. Its embarrassing really! I found a ring that i like when i went with Ezar but i dont know ... i think i am still searching for the one but the one that i found wasnt that bad so we'll see.

His parents? Well they're very happy and supportive. His mom cooks great food whenever im there. I can request almost anything, she'll make for me, no kidding. She is really awesome!

I honestly cant wait to start a new chapter in my life with my bestfriend! Hehe okay bridezilla mode aside. Lets talk about work. Addara is blossoming and i cant thank you and be grateful enough for my wonderful and understanding customers. They're really the icing on my rainbow cake. Im designing a new range for Addara. I will debut it this time around next month. Boyfriend chose the color. HAHAHA. I cant wait to see how it'll turn out. Andddd oh oh oh, if you know me, you know i love doing events. The planning and everything it makes me all happy and high so i have teamed up with my co founder to set up a small event company. We're not qualified to do weddings yet but soon insyaallah when the right time comes. We're in the midst of sorting things out, still buying things here and there for this. I really hope everyone, especially those in Penang will support us.

We'll shy away from the cookie cutter sort-of events, and replace it with few touches of our quirks and twists!

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I now must juggle 2 phones, 3 Twitter accounts, 4 Gmail accounts, 3 Facebook accounts and 2 blogs (soon to be 3 blogs). Die lah like this. But its okay *breathing in, breathing out*, insyaallah i will manage! Ohh lupa nak tulis, im in the midst of rebranding Addara. I have asked a team that i love to design for both Addara and Thequirkybirds. But they're very very busy people. I hope to see the result soon. So excited with everything! I am now occupied with a lot of things and it is making miss my girlfriends/the crazy bunch alot! I cant even curi curi go to KL to spend time with them sebab everyday ada saja things i have to settle. Hopefully i have 1-2 free days at the end of this month. I need them to keep me sane! Talking over the phone is just not the same as chit chatting with them face to face. I need my dose of red velvet cakes (we're all big fans of rvcs), gossip and Charade!

I miss themmmmm! I didnt get to see Ana before she left to Singapore pun, sobs  :/ I hope you're okay there!

I Wish I May I Wish I Might!

Imagine you dancing barefoot at your own wedding, a garden wedding, dancing to Nino Rota's La Dolce Vita ... it would be oh so perfect.

If i could (i would bore the guests to death i know), i want to play Frank Sinatra, Ella Fitzgerald, Billie Holiday non stop at my wedding! Or play Casablanca on repeat, ah thats even betteeeer!

"You must remember this, a kiss is just a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh, the fundamental things apply as time goes by, as time goes by ... and when two lovers woo, they still say "i love you", on that you can rely, no matter what the future brings, as time goes by ...."


And when i have babies, i will hum these beautiful songs for them. I will play them Breakfast At Tiffany's, Sabrina, Roman Holiday ... ahhhhhhhhhh!

*slaps self - goes back to reality*

Yeah whatever, no Lady Gaga and Beyonce for my kids.

Lord Of The Ring

If you've been reading my blog for quite some time you should know that i refused to settle for anything else than my dream wedding ring. Click here to refresh your memory.

The perfect cut, perfect setting and the perfect brand, everything a girl wants in her wedding ring.

But, this was before i went to Tiffany & Co and tried on the ring myself. I was dissapointed. For a ring that's almost 20k, the diamond ciput okay and not sparkly. Dont lecture me on the 4Cs because i am no expert. Before, i wanted the ring so badly but i can happily say not anymore.

After that i went to Cartier with my sister. Fab rings they have. And tiny stones with my budget. I tried on a few. One with the 10k price tag i cant remember. It was a-okay. Then i tried on the 17k diamond. Same tiny size but hear this, after we got in the car my sis said "Kakaaaaaaak yang 17k tu diamond dia punya sparkle tu macam dok panah mata aku". Haha it was sparkly alright. But way out of my budget. I manusia sedar diri okay.

Like my dear friend Reena, i am not into jewellery too. Thats why i feel its okay to spend a bit more on the wedding ring because i know lepas tu memang takkan beli anything dah. For me a nice looking wedding ring (in my eyes) and a good watch is enough dah. Tak payah dok pakai berutas utas rantai emas rantai berlian segala mak nenek. I am no anak mami uolls.

After that ring hunting session, i decided not to look anymore. Until i went into this shop in Gurney Plaza to ask about nak polish my ring when i saw it ... i saw her, my dream ring, my love, the perfect size, the perfect cut, the perfect everything!

I looked at her and she looked back at me smiling, asking me to try her. I was scared to try because i know mati lah kalau try lepas ni memang semua sleepless night la. I tried a smaller stone walaupun hati menjerit suruh try that dream ring. And i managed to peek at her price tag, i heard and felt my heart break into thousands of tiny pieces. Thank goodness tak try.

I took out the ring i tried on, said thanks and left.

Price tag of my dream ring?

RM40,000. Double the price and size of the Tiffany & Co. ring.

Damn you beautiful rings for being so expensive. Damn youuuu

Pinnish Oledi

I went to the post office in Queensbay today to send my customers' parcel. Kebetulan Habib Jewels tepi post office je kan so i went lah nak tanya pasal cincin. But the lady kesian so clueless so i showed her satu photo contoh and she told me dekat situ takda that style. Okay fine ...

Then i went to Goldheart. Bila tanya tak paham (kata kerja kedai emas segala bagai) so i showed the salesboy the photo dekat dalam BB. Bagus si apek ni bawak BB pusing satu kedai tunjuk dekat his friends tanya ada ke takda then when he came back to me he said ...

"This wan oledi pinnishhhhhhhhh"

Lepas tu i told lah a friend what happened. Kat Habib takda, kat Goldheart depa kata pinnish oledi. I told her lah mesti tipu lah kalau pinnish takkan lah tak boleh order. Maybe takda style tu but they didnt want to tell me that

My friend saiddd ...

"_______ finish? Gila kot? Ingat aiskrim rainbow?!?!?!?!"


Weh sumpah at that time it was lawak nak mampos. Its a ring lah dei how come it can be pinnishhhhhhhhh! Lepas tu turun bawah to Tomei. Takda jugak. Her showed me lah rings apa yang they have there. Then i showed the salesboy the photo. This clever dude said to me ...

"Ah i think this wan you can find in KLCC. In Tiffany"

Wah Ah Boy you so smart telling me to get it in Tiffany since the photo of the ring IS a Tiffany & Co. ring. I juuuuuuuuuuust want to compare rings of that style lah of course i know where to get the real one, oh sigh!

The Perfect Wedding Ring

How do you settle on a wedding ring when you have your eyes and heart glued on this since like forever. Its so beautiful. Its so painful to see.

The smallest carat which is the 0.3 has the same price of a 2.55 Jumbo. The 1 carat above is so gorgeous i cant breathe *faints*

My Wedding Song :)

She'll let you in her house

If you come knocking late at night

She'll let you in her mouth

If the words you say are right

If you pay the price

She'll let you deep inside

But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car

To go driving round

She'll let you into the parts of herself

That'll bring you down

She'll let you in her heart

If you got a hammer and a vise

But into her secret garden, dont think twice

You've gone a million miles

How far you get

To that place where you cant remember

And you cant forget

She'll lead you down a path

There'll be tenderness in the air

She'll let you come just far enough

So you know shes really there

She'll look at you and smile

And her eyes will say

Shes got a secret garden

Where everything you want

Where everything you need

Will always stay

A million miles away ...

Too Magical For Words ...

So beautifuuuuuuuuuuuuuuul i can die.

Pics credit to Preston Bailey, Zery Zamry and Jovian Mandagie

Grace Kelly

This is picture perfect.

Haute Couture

The Big M!

I am turning 24 years old this year. Most of my friends are married. But i dont feel like joining the club anytime soon. I dont see why do you need to rush things when its something important like marriage. Kahwin sekali saja seumur hidup. Thats what we all want. Tapi we'll never know whats gonna happen to us in the future kan? But i hope and wish for the best for all of us.

I am not ready to be a wife yet. I have lots of things to do before nak fikir pasal kahwin. And there's alot of things that i need to learn as well. Next year is not gonna happen. Im sorry. Maybe in 2-3 years to come, insyaallah. If its meant to be, it'll happen. No need to rush. Bukankah lebih baik if the wedding dibuat dalam keadaan yang sempurna dan bukannya tergesa gesa?

I bukanlah seorang yang tak berpijak dibumi yang nyata. I dont want and i dont need a grand wedding. I dont want a wedding yang terikat with this and that rules. I tak nak jadi a bride yang kaku, too many protocols/things to do on your wedding day sampai you cant be yourself. Thats not the kind of wedding that i want. I bukanlah nak pakai Vera Wang on my wedding day. Kalau i suka kat a beautiful dress without a brand i'll wear it. Tak guna kalau pakai dress 10k tapi not suitable atau nampak murah ke, dan lain lain lagi lah. Kalau ada rezeki lebih, boleh lah tempah kat Rizman Ruzaini. Kalau tak dapat, just bersyukur dengan apa yang ada. Sebab ada orang lain yang wedding biasa pun, hidup bahagia sebab the marriage diberkati. Kalau ada rezeki dapat tempah dgn Radzuan Razwill, tak perlu lah nak shout out to semua orang the tag price of your dress. Kalau ada orang tanya, you can tell them but there's no need for self-promotion. Takut orang meluat pulak nanti. Kalau boleh nak our guests yang datang to the wedding, wish benda yang bagus bagus. Kata kata kan satu doa. So yea ... banyak benda yang nak fikir kalau nak kahwin ni, bukan boleh dibuat sekadar tangkap muat. Well thats my opinion. Lain orang lain pendapat.  

Kahwin is for a lifetime. It is not a trend to follow just cause everyone is married or getting married. Its their life, they make their own decisions. But this is my life, so im calling the shots!

Lucky Number Slevin

After reading Sabrina's blog, i totally changed my mind on what i wanted for my wedding. Everything became clearer and easier. Alhamdulillah. Thanks a million to Sab. Alot of infos of haram dan halal, dos and donts that she wrote is very useful to use as a guide for me to plan my wedding in the future.

I used to dream of a wedding, it was nothing big ... but its a very different vision from what i have in mind now. I dont feel the need to do 'bersanding' anymore now, i dont feel the need to give 10 hantarans, i dont feel the need for menepung tawar and such. Things that are not essential, not necessary to do but everyone is doing it because of 'adat' that isnt as important as what is 'harus' and 'halal'.

I still have a long way to go to understand more about Islam. And im learning now. Alhamdulillah i can think much clearly now. But i dont deny sometimes terleka jugak. Of course. I am still young. The feeling nak enjoy lagi, i wont deny, its still there. But semakin hari, semakin berkurang. Sometimes i feel old. Older than my mother perhaps. But sometimes i feel so young and all energetic. I just cant make up my mind what i want and what i dont. But i hope with the guidance of few people, i can be strong and keep pushing myself to do whats best for me in life and in the afterlife, insyaAllah. I can see that i am much better and much stronger now compare to before. Alot of things still nak kena improve, but im happy that im progressing and working on my flaws. I dont know why, but talking about all this ... sometimes terasa sebak sangat. I've done alot of things, God knows alot of things that im not proud of. And im so blessed and lucky that i am 'awake' now. Thanks a million to my pillar of strength, my boyfriend yang tak putus putus nasihat, yang tak putus putus pushing me to be a better person, yang tak putus putus loving me. Thank you for making me a better person and for being the bestest friend in the world.

Today marks the 7th year of our relationship. Happy anniversary E.

ILU. Always have and always will.