Masalah Kegemukan

I gained a lot of weight some time last year, nak dekat Ramadhan. My face was so full, too full. I feel like punching myself then. I ate a lot. 2-3 times a week i ate Hameediyah's briyani because i was so addicted to it, and few other things on top of that - RVCs, macs, anything sweet i can get.

I had a blast during my birthday last year celebrating with the crazy bunch but memang teramat sangat tak happy dengan size badan and muka. Lepas tu baru sedar, i need to cut down nasi, and few other things. Cannot be lazy, jalan more whenever i can. So i find myself walking 'round the mall few hours a day and cuci mata window shopping then. Hey, its better than walking along in the park!

Then berat turun until 50kg. Happy but not entirely happy sebab i wanted to be 40kg again, which is IMPOSSIBLE i know. But nothing is impossible right? Sekarang berat 48-50kg. Tak tentu. Hari ni timbang lain, esok lain. But around that, tak pernah lebih lagi. Alhamdulillah im so happy.

Anddddddd dah boleh pakai balik baju Najjah ni, yeay! Sebab time gemok baju ni ketat gila tapi now dah boleh pakai sampai kena perli with my friends sebab dah boleh pakai haha lantak lah im really happy that i can fit into it now. Lepas ni nak kena work-out more. Hopefully sebelum kahwin boleh kurus till 40kg, amin!

Ezani and Aqilah's solemnization, May 2010

Cameron Highlands, July 2010

Iftar at Golden Triangle, Sept 2010

Azizi and Mastura's wedding, Jan 2011

Faezah's wedding, Feb 2011

Jay's kenduri doa selamat, April 2011

Lunch at Twenty One, May 2011

Finally tah-daaaaaaaa!

Safura and Alwi's engagement, Sept 2011

Kalau boleh nak jadi kurus macamni okaybye

Christmas at my Nenna's house, 2005

I Need Help!

Binge eating binge eating binge eating OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG what the hell is wrong with me i just cannot stop eating please helpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp!

Should i go tomorrow or should i not? Hmmmm decisions decisions ...

Can someone please tell me kat mana boleh dapat buah delima muda? I've asked so many people but no one seems to know. I am such a bug-a-boo i know. Poor E. Kept on buggering him to find it for me.

Why do i keep thinking about food? I am such a fat ass now all i ever think about is food food food. God what is wrong with me! I dont want to be fat. Should i get Herbalife? Should i should i should i? I keep on feeling hungry doesnt matter if i just ate a whole cow just now, half an hour after that i'll be hungry again. Major self-destruction, oh no.

Stopped going jogging ever since Ramadhan ended. I should start going jogging again. Should start working out more again since i dont have the strength to cut down on the food so i guess i have to work out more than i eat. Sad sad sad

Fat Mama Goes Jogging

Good morning people! What a beautiful Sunday morning it is.

Just got back from my morning jog/walk. I managed to do 10 rounds today. Wanted to do more but my body wouldnt allow it, sighhh. Cant wait to go swimming after Raya. Its been awhile. But before that kena beli swimming attire dulu i have none! Got lah bikinis tapi takkan nak pakai bikini kan? Kalau badan banging macam Geri Halliwell takpa jugak.

Yesterday my friends told me that jogging after sahur isnt good sebab it'll cause dehydration. I have no choice but to push myself very hard this month sebab i have gain so much weight, trust me. I'll take dehydration over being fat any day! To those yang tak percaya, please lah believe me when i say i am such a fatso now. Even my mom pun ringan dari i! Damn. Macamana lah boleh allow this to happen ... I promise this will be the first and last time i'll ever gain this kind of weight!

Tension oh sekarang. Nak pakai baju apa semua rasa tak kena, tak selesa. Padahal before this okay ja nak pakai all the clothes. I refused to buy a bigger size sebab i dont intend to stay on at this weight. So hopefully before Raya boleh lah lose some weight. Tak 13 kg pun takpa as long as ada lah nampak any changes, that should be good enough for me.

Makan pun kena jaga starting now. I limit myself makan 1000-1200 calories je per day takut gemok. And drink more water. Also started drinking my herbal tea back. Hopefully by doing all of this i can go back to being 40 kg. Please pray for me people :/

*sobs sobs*

Do Or Die

Started my jogging/morning walk 2 days ago. So far baru buat 30 mins for both days. But later today im going to do more rounds and nak jog lama sikit lah dalam one hour or so. I need to burn all this fat and evil carbs from eating nasi, nasi, nasi! Lepas Ramadhan nak start p swim and p gym. I feel like buying a bicycle tapi takda kawan how to ride le? :/

I need to shed off this extra 13kg in 2 weeks time, ha ha i hope it'll happen

Desperate Times, Desperate Measures

I need to lose weight in 14 days! Desperate times call for desperate measures. I cant stand being fat. Enough is enough. I am done with this weight. Starting tomorrow i will work my butt off to be thin again!


Since i am that desperate, i googled few quickie easy ways to lose weight in 2 weeks!


Cut down junk foods
Stop eating out
Drink less sugary drink
Eat more fresh wholesome food
Try to get 2 serves of fruits and 5 serves of veggie per day
Eat 6 healthy mini meals per day. The key here is to eat in controlled portions and NEVER GO FOR THAT SECOND SERVE OR A SUPER SIZE MEAL!
Work out (duh!), take a midday walk or a run daily!
Drinks lots of water, water, water


Tomorrow will be the start of a new day for me, insyaallah. 


Note to self: You better Melissa. I swear you better do it.

Gimme Eight!

Im trying to force myself to drink 8 glasses of water a day. But i cant stand just drinking plain water. Bila minum banyak banyak rasa geli. My aunt bought me a box of these ...

Sebab senang sikit nak kira hehe dan untuk menghalau rasa loya, i'll pour few drops of Nutri Juice Pink Guava from Cosway and mix it with the mineral water so adalah flavour sikit. Bila minum banyak pun tak muak or rasa jemu. Nanti kalau jemu tukar lah flavour. Nak try Mango flavour pulak lah lepas ni. But a question, our body dapat the same benefit tak as kalau kita minum plain water? Hmmmm ...

Man I Feel Like A ... Errr ... Man!

Before this im using this Ellgy soap for my skin allergies. Dah pakai sabun ni baru la badan okay, taklah jadi as bad as when i was using normal soap/body wash etc. Sabun ni takda bau, color or whatsoever. But since sabun ni, the doctor yang bagi ... and since i have stopped going to see the doc, i cant find it anywhere! Watson ke, Guardian ke, pharmacies lain pun memang takda sabun ni.

So right now im trying Sebamed. Ada color - very light green. Bila pakai the bau cam sandal wood ke apa tah. Bau yang ke arah kelelakian. And now i smell like a freakin' dude! Haha. It reminds me of something my late dad used to wear. I cant remember what it is. Might be his talc-powder or his aftershave cream or something but its the same smell! So now i officially have my dad's smell.

Tapi pakai sabun ni kulit jadi soft and i can feel something is different than the Ellgy soap but i dont know what it is but memang rasa lain lah from that Ellgy soap.

Kesian lah kan tak boleh jadi macam other normal people pakai sabun/bodywash yang bau wangi dan yang ada color cantik cantik. Nak buat macamana. Kalau pakai jugak nanti tergaru garu lah badan sentiasa. My skin is sensitive. I hope it gets better soon. Dah bertahun hidup macam ni. I cant be on the pills forever. Mesti ada side effects nanti. So i truly hope this allergies problem that i've been having for years will stop soon. Aminn.

That aside, i jumpa ni kat pharmacy dan seperti teruja nak try. Its for weight loss.

Before you all cakap im not that fat bla bla bla, please do ask my boyfriend or my close friends and they will tell you i've gained weight. My boobs, arms, thighs are getting bigger. Ni semua sebab at one time i was seriously addicted to Yeos punya soya bean drink. Everyday mesti minum 4-5 kotak. I did that for 2 months. Tanpa disedari, berat naik mencanak-canak. Im still wearing my old jeans. I made a vow to myself to not buy myself new jeans ...not until i loose weight!

PGX Daily ni fungsi dia bagi perut rasa kenyang. Baguslah untuk orang yang selalu rasa lapar like myself. It helps to reduce unhealthy food cravings. The price is almost RM200. I know there's alot of benda yang boleh bagi berat turun like Herbalife, Jusmate-5 and such tapi semua tu kena minum and i dont like anything yang kena bancuh then minum. I am a pill type of person so yea ... If theres anyone out there yang pernah try this pill or taking it now, please let me know please. I reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally want to try this

Shedding Few Pounds ...

Since i started going heavy on online shopping, i dont go out that much anymore. I can get everything now by just one click. Clothes, makeups, hair and skincare products, food and etc. And im kinda worried about this new habit. If i dont go out much, i wont be able to 'exercise'! Shopping (walking 10x times around the mall is considered as an exercise, lol) in the mall burns approx 140 calories per hour. And if you're running around with your grocery cart, you'll burn more calories. Since im spending alot of time at home, i've Googled a number of ways how to burn up to extra 200 calories without doing what actually feels like exercise. And this information is useful for people like me, and to all the lazy bums out there too.

01. Gardening - Cutting, weeding or raking for 30 mins or so can really burn off extra energy. If you dont have a garden, why not help your elderly neighbour out with their gardening choirs?

02. Dancing - Take a night out, and dance, dance, dance rather than going out for a meal. Try to dance gently for ten minutes and go for this five times during the course of the night. This burns 200 calories.

03. Wash up - Complete the washing up after each meal for 5 consecutive nights. If you've a dishwasher, give it a rest. Using a dishwasher less saves energy and contribute less to carbon emmisions.

04. Clean out - If you dont fancy washing the dishes, then try cleaning out old cupboards. A good hour of this should be enough for 200 calories.

05. Gaming - Try playing new and exciting games. Board games, cards, or even playing Play Station or Wii can help burn off the energy.

06. Going up and down the stairs - Make it your goal to walk up and down your stairs for a total 20 minutes each day. This can be done over the course of a day. Although, make sure you are fine to attempt this kind of activity before doing so. Maybe start off doing a few minutes each day and build up.

07. Dressing up - Get all your old clothes out and try them on. This can be fun and within an hour you'll burn 200 calories.

08. Hula hoop - Using a hula hoop for 40 minutes total can really burn the calories away.

09. Paint a room - Painting helps burn the energy away, over 200 calories for every hour.

10. Light stretching - Try a stretching routine for half an hour before a bath.  

Hope that helps. Good luck!

Addiction.

I have a new weird habit. Im addicted to my hands sanitizer! I'll squeeze it out every 10 minutes! I am currently crazy about Hovid Quickclean Instant Antibacterial Hand Gel which has a very nice citrus smell after using it and i am also using Eskulin Kids Mickey Hand Sanitizer. Both aren not sticky at all! You can lick your fingers after using and you won't feel a thing from both hands sanitizer.

Another not weird habit i have is buying online. Not just any clothes, but Muslimah fashion clothes, hijabs and accessories! Ha ha! I am slowly building my collection of appropriate clothes to wear with tudung because as of right now, i only have a few and the clothes are getting tighter because i am getting fatter. And besides that im getting tired of hearing Ezar's nagging saying "B takda baju labuh sikit ke?" or "B, boleh tak pakai dengan cardigan". Haihhh. Sabar lah i am changing slowly. Dia ni pulak nak express, mana boleh. But as for me, i feel like i will wear tudung on day to day basis only when i am fully ready because i don't want to be a hypocrite and i don't want to do it just because he told me so. But so far, alhamdulillah. I am happy and proud with the progress im making. Insyaallah soon, i will wear it full time.